In a land not so long ago, and not so far away, this magnificent body of mine could cross the finish line of 100 mile, 50 mile races. That made me happy. 20 mile training run on a Saturday morning? Walk in the park.
I was a single Mom, mother of two beautiful daughters (nobody admits to the ugly ones) top salesperson, multiple times Presidient club winner, made good money, single for 17 years. I didn't need a man. That made me happy. I may have wanted a man, but no, Ms. Wonder Woman didn't need anyone.
Today, I'm humbly walking in a walker, 25% max weight bearing on my new knee, made it through these wimpy physical therapy exercises for the first time today without crying. That makes me happy!
My two daughters (they're still beautiful) are making me proud, taking care of themselves, working, but most importantly, being great, loving family members.
I'm four years newylwed to a super great man. And, the father of my daughters and I have maintained a really nice relationship.
Don't get me wrong. I've experienced some very dark nights of the soul. Do I miss having, being, doing all the things I'm not doing able to do right now? Heck, freaking yes!!
But I discovered something. Happiness is a decision, not an experience. Love is a decision, not an experience. If we think we have to have (fill in the blank) to be happy, it's never going to happen.
Eleven days out from my surgery and I still get all teary eyed thinking about the donor whose living bone and cartilage are now cheerfully growing in my knee. Who was this person? How did they die? How is their family dealing with the loss? I pray fervently every day for this person and his/her family and friends. One of the things that keeps me going is my plan to send the family a letter and pictures of myself running, biking, surfing etc. once I'm able to do so. Every small victory I have with my PT, I am happy and grateful for this opportunity. I can almost raise my leg high enough (with a towel) to kiss that beautiful knee. That makes me happy.
So, if you're happy and you know it, stamp your feet!